Before i forget, ANOTHER RANT.

i'm really upset and disappointed with myself. Really what the fuck is my damn problem. Am i fucking stupid or what man. In my all 4 years i have never hit an 2x before. Every single time my mark will be hovering around 17 18 19 it really fucking pisses me off. Why am i unable to understand,to look beyond the freaking depths. i dont know, I DONT KNOW. i feel like a fucking retard.

i seem to be fucking up all my subjects.