Don't be a macho man,

Friday, August 28, 2009

Wish
you could turn off

the questions, turn
off the voices,
turn off all sound.

Yearn

to close out
the ugliness, close
out the filthiness,
close out all light.

Long
to cast away

yesterday,cast
away memory,
cast away jeopardy.

Pray
you could somehow stop

the uncertainty,somehow
stop the loathing,
somehow stop the agony.

But, i wont act on impulse.

我好想去

飚车

(Story)Books

are my escapade.

Today,

Thursday, August 27, 2009

I cycled home in the rain.
I didn't know what sparked me to do that.

I didn't care about being wet,
I didn't care about being dirty,
I simply didn't care.

Lesson today again!

Saturday, August 08, 2009

I hearts the online translation dictionary but there are so many damn temptations in using com):

so i even more hearts cikgu's eletronic dictionary!

its fffffaaaabulous.

okay, time to go out soon.

my mum's lappy webcam is so fun to play with ! xD

Orphan.

Friday, August 07, 2009

I AM SOOOOO FREAKING AGITATED RIGHT NOW. GRRR.

I so totally want to watch it but there are 2 bloooody factors stopping me. DAMN!

i'm not bloody 16 yet
and why does the damn timings have to be ONLY at night.

Pissed off!

Sian.

Its 1.26 today

what about tmr?

Jiayou.

Warning!

Thursday, August 06, 2009

Presence of Vulgarities in prev posts.

Not for the faint hearted.

LOL.

Now u know how crude i am :/

Apprehensive.

MSP oral on next tuesday. :/

hope i spot the right topic.

Quote of the day

This is the beginning of sadness, i say to myself,
as i walk through the universe in my sneakers.
-

But now when i fall upon the sidewalks of life,
i skin my knees. i bleed.

hah.literally too.

Literature

Before i forget, ANOTHER RANT.

i'm really upset and disappointed with myself. Really what the fuck is my damn problem. Am i fucking stupid or what man. In my all 4 years i have never hit an 2x before. Every single time my mark will be hovering around 17 18 19 it really fucking pisses me off. Why am i unable to understand,to look beyond the freaking depths. i dont know, I DONT KNOW. i feel like a fucking retard.

i seem to be fucking up all my subjects.

张惠妹 - 听得见的梦想

张惠妹 - 听得见的梦想

星星安静闪着光亮
哼唱天使般的乐章
山风温暖起伏胸膛
撑起你沉默的盼望

捂住耳朵手贴在心上
闭上双眼能看见远方
从来没有害怕你和我都一样
没有到不了的地方

最温暖的宝藏
透过专注的眼光听见梦想
最真实的力量
藏在无声的天堂听见希望

微笑就是爱的桥梁
过程中的伤都珍藏
或许路途比较漫长
看到你骄傲的抵达

捂住耳朵手举向天上
用心接收欢呼的声誉
汗水就是徽章发出耀眼光芒
照亮你奔驰的地方

最温暖的宝藏
透过专注的眼光听见梦想
最真实的力量
藏在无声的天堂听见希望

I'm begging you

Please take away those vile thoughts.

Let me be in control.

Dear God,

Please help me.
Guide me along
Give me the strength and determination to persevere on

Thank you.

Fucking stressed up

I find it really difficult to carry on my life like this. Sometimes i just want to give up, give in and don't give a fuck about anything.Seriously. This year is a particular hard year for me,emotionally and academically. i dunno why and its really really taking its toil on me. i really wan to fuck care now you know. i want my normal old life back. BUT I CANT HAVE IT. i'm in fucking agony.

STOP SUCKING THE LIFE OUT OF ME.

English

This is the first time in my whole life that I have gotten an U. Ungraded. Why? Because of my fucking ugly handwriting. I’m really pissed with myself just why I can’t produce nice handwriting. I’ve been ‘nagged’ at a few times already. Really what the fuck is my problem. I tried to produce nicer and better handwriting but it just couldn’t look any better.

Fuck it.

Please don't make me go by John Fenton

Its definitely worth a read. i was totally hooked on it and just finished it in the afternoon. Nerd bookworm whatever.He is such a strong boy and i don't think i can ever be as strong as him,really. His unwavering determination and perseverance has gained my utmost respects.i wished i was half as strong as him. He is very extremely brave.

I have to say this: WILKINSON IS A FUCKING BASTARD. you'll know why if u read the book. i was crying for him,John should never have had that fucking experience. my heart cries out for him.

i wish i had his determinace,his attitude.